that was my ex last messages after we had an argument nd i said alot of things that I wasn’t supposed to say nd now i feel guilty but i don’t get his last messages please help me understand:” Since we started talking again, I had hope. We were close closer than I expected and for a moment I genuinely thought we still had something. I cared I trusted and I let myself believe in that feeling again. But as time passed, I started seeing things and experiencing nights I never thought I'd have to go through again. It hurt faster than I expected, especially because I was being real and present. I won't lie part of me wanted to go back with you. But I can't just jump back into something without understanding what's really changed. I need to feel you to see growth accountability and maturity not confusion ego or cycles that leave me feeling like I'm forcing the connection or like my presence means nothing I make mistakes and I own them, but l also know when something is affecting me in ways I can't ignore. Every interaction started to weigh on me more and with each day that passes without clarity it hurts more. Not because I don't care, but because I do and I'm caught between the hope I had and the reality I'm facing now I'm talking like this because I'm trying to protect my peace while still being honest about how this affected me. This isn't anger or bitterness it's me recognizing my limits my worth and the fact that I can't keep putting myself in a space that hurts me like nothing before even if it once felt like home

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