breakup

I am a college student, and I had a bad experience last semester where I went through a bad breakup. The issue is that it was a bit complicated as the issue wasn't just between me and the other person, but also friends were involved. And it's on me because my reaction was to vent out to them... however now I am regretting this because i see that i am the one alone without friends at all. And sometimes i keep wondering, why is this happening to me? I had issue with a person, why somehow all the mutual friends started drifting away from me. I wwnt to a psychiatric and tried to find new friends and tried to have new hobbies. But this doesn't click. More importantly, this isn't the only thing that is bothering me, I went through three big fights and all of a sudden now i feel like i am the one in the wrong and need to change yet i don't know what i should do... and i blame those past friends for not givjng support or trying to tell me what's wrong with me. Now the only thing i feel is hollowness that I don't know how to avoid. They say you should process those emotions and live by them, one day you will be healed, but i fear i get into the next semester and just lose more people... i also want to go back to those friends, and i tried but i always feel that i am being rejected, in fact i talked with that person that i broke up with and it admitted that most what was done by it was out of disrespect and desire to bother me... I would like to knoq what i should do of course you don't have the full picture and i might be biased and only show myself as a victim... but maybe because i don't know that i was wrong in any thing

I broke up with my boyfriend on the 18th of March and he moved on the next day,I've been talking to him,even yesterday we talked,the thing is I'm unable to move on from him the same way he did On Sunday we flirted and later that day i told him that I'm keeping my distance because he's in a relationship,honestly it's hard to forget about him

I'm a 28 years old guy, and I'm in quite the changing phase in my life, I'm mostly digging through what everyone digs through, jobs, relationships, family etcetera, i don't what's wrong with me or if something is wrong with me, I've been this talketive guy for ages and very aware of whatever there is. I've had a break up with the love of my life around a year and a half ago, our break up was initiated by me, after we went through a series of arguments about our relationship (she mostly wanted to change somethings i didn't want to change, some were within her rights, some weren't, i honestly can't remember) after our break up she started having all these guys around her and all, and it made me jealous I'm not going to lie, i still have feelings for her or at least what i had with her. But ever since i haven't tried with anyone seriously and the fear of ending up alone is constantly clinging to the back of my mind, specially at my age and every one is getting married and all; lately i had a fall out with three of my closest friends One was a male who has been being an asshole for some time and wouldn't really quit being a douchbag in whatever we would do whether it's a hangout or gaming or anything he would just make fun of me or call me things and i didn't really like the consistency of it, we had a huge fight and we just went our ways, our friend group didn't exactly side with any of us, but they told me that that's how he is and everyone should just ignore what he does. My second friend is a female whom i knew from college days, we live in different towns we usually have phone calls to just talk about life and all, she lately started asking me all sort of questions about our friendship like what she means to me or what does she add to my life etcetera etcetera, until she just opened up about a subject of whether we judged each other and when, and honest as i am told her i did years ago when she did something, but we would fight if we talked about it, and she kept pushing and pushing until i told her about she expressed pure utter disgust to a joke about us getting married and it had me think of her as the girl who just thinks every guy wants to be with her and i didn't back then nor know, anyways it started this huge fight and i think I'm cutting her off after this. My third friend is a female ex co-worker, we worked in the same place for 4 years until we both quit, we kept contact after that, until lately she started constantly flirting with me, i honestly liked it, i liked the attention and she's a great person, but i had to ask about it all and she hinted at it as filrting and not something friendly, i played along a little and i asked her honest and raw and she said that we're real friends and that's what real friends treat each other, i was furious and hurt a little and immediately shut it off, she pretended like she didn't understand and i just left it as it is. My thinking after all this is whether maybe something is truly wrong with me, I'm not seeking validation or empathy or anything, i just want an external point of view, an advice or anything, something to keep me from falling out Ps: i am also religious and i am counting on god first, and that's my first go to, so easy of the religious advice