burnout

How can a man get some peace of mind without feeling that I'm behind or that I'm wasting my time? Every single time i just try to unplug my mind and just chill for a bit, even slowing down for a while i always end up feeling bad, worse than ever, feeling like i should be doing more and more, i should be working now, i should be making more money, etc like I don't deserve to take a break Even tho i have so freaking much going on with my life lately, and while being a one man army for years, i really need to find some peace

Hi, this is my first time using this app, and I'm hoping for some advices or literally anything. I'm a high performance athlete and i feel like my parents and coach want too much from me and I can't give the desired results. I always try my best. It doesn't matter how much i train I get worse, but they want more and more. They only want the medals and just ignore the fact that I feel exhausted emotionally and physically. I know sports are a big roller-coaster but it's just hard. I been doing it for many years but this is different, i have really bad thoughts and i realized i torture myself. I always think that i can't do it. When i talk about this to my parents they just joke about it, f**ing laugh at me...like some little kids. They say i just want attention. I feel lost, like a fool...