confidence

As a 30yo female i feel like time is running out, and im still not over this feeling of hatred towards myself, it all started when my younger sister was born, i was 7 i was a tomboy i loved playing with boys more, everyone used to make hateful comments but i didn't care, until i turned 7, started getting jealous, started eating more, and gained weight, the comments became more harsh, comparing me to my older & younger sister, anyway started not looking at my reflection at all, i wouldent care about how i looked, continued gaining weight, and blamed it on my weight( it= self hatred) anyway by 2019 i was 23 i lost all the weight, but my confidence never came back & tge hatred never got away, so by the time covid hit, i gained back that weight, and now 6 yrs later i lost it again but still feel shitty about my appearance, so.. sorry to say it but the more u let it grow with u the harder it gets to get rid off. Talk to someone before its too late

Hi… this is my first time posting here so I’m a bit nervous. Lately I’ve been feeling constantly anxious and stressed, like my mind never really turns off. I overthink everything — things I said, things I did, even things that haven’t happened yet. It’s exhausting and sometimes it feels like I can’t fully relax, even when I try. I also feel stuck between wanting to improve my life and not feeling good enough to actually do it. I have goals — I want to do better in school, feel more confident in how I look, and just be a better version of myself — but my anxiety and overthinking make everything feel overwhelming. There are moments where I feel motivated, but they don’t last long before I start doubting myself again. I compare myself to others a lot and it makes me feel like I’m behind or not enough. There’s also someone I like, and that adds to my stress because I’m scared of rejection and I don’t feel confident in myself. I just want to feel calm, secure, and at peace with myself, but I don’t really know how to get there or how to stop my mind from racing all the time. Has anyone else felt like this? How do you cope with constant anxiety and overthinking?