emotional distress

So i kinda fell head over heals for this guy but hes 22 and im 6 years yonger than him and he has a lot of complicated things going on and i dont juge him for that but my grandmother wont let me be with him or be around him bc “you shouldnt be that attached” but i have bad attachment issues due to parental problems ect. So i get attached quick and put my whole heart into everyone and i dont know how to feel anymore ive been so anxious i get sick and i cant stop crying even the thought makes me cry but my nana says something is wrong with me, is there something wrong?

Struggling with my mental and physical health. I can't look after myself and so I still have to live with my family. My mum struggles being my carer and criticises me for not getting better, when I'm doing my best but it's just not improving. I'd do anything to get better, it's not a choice to be this way, but everyone (particularly my mum and grandparents I live with) just thinks I'm not trying hard enough. I don't want to be told it gets better. My mental health crisis since 2019 won't end, l've tried everything. Nothing's worked. I’m hopeless. I was wrongly sectioned in 2024 and sent to a psych ward (I wasn’t a danger to myself or others, just needed gentle help and support at home) which destroyed me. I’m hopeless. :(