feeling invisible

So, I'm bad in expressing my feelings, I don't know what's happening to me, I'm tired of this life, I'm tired of love, he was the best person and I loved him so much, I thought he's the only one who understands me but, he's changing, he doesn't care about me. I need someone to care about me, I told him about my illness but he uses it as a, something funny. I'm not okay, at all, I need help, but I can't ask for it, because nobody cares about me! They just see me as a funny girl, but, no one's trying to understand me Even when I talk about how do I feel, I just see people changing, hating me If someone has some advice or just, sweet things to tell me, I really need it

Here they are again, Holidays reveal ur loneliness, no life without exams studying,no one to turn to, no one to choose u, no one cares about u. Ur just thinking of who of them to talk to but u just feel u have no place or right to talk to somebody. Know that I'm not thier favorite but wish to, did everything to reach that place, but at the end no one to turn to, no one to escape to, no one to reveal ur real one to.