feeling trapped

I have a boyfriend we love each other and all but we fight most of the time and its like over little things he always blames for not doing things the right way and it seems like its always my fault and im sick of it. Ik he loves me but sometimes he's doing too much like overreacting and always making me feel guilty and the thing is he always yells and starts screaming and all and im really reallg tired of it. As much as i love him i wanna leave him too cuz i really cant keep up like this anymore i really just wanna be by myself. Idk how to break up with him tho i dont wanna break his heart he always says if someday i decide to leave him he's gonna kill himself as if he can't live without and bro i wanna go but im so confused and so tired and also so lost. Any advice?

Hi, today I came here to ask for some advice, or to hear from anyone who has been through something similar. I really want to continue my studies in a specific country, but my family refuses. They want me to go to another country where some of our relatives live, so I can have support and help there. The problem is that I don’t like that country at all. It feels dull and lifeless to me, and I don’t think I could feel comfortable or motivated there. On the other hand, the country I want to go to feels full of life and energy, and I know I need that kind of environment to stay active and do well. Both countries are in Europe, but I feel like the atmosphere would make a huge difference for me. What do you think about this situation