I am a college student, and I had a bad experience last semester where I went through a bad breakup. The issue is that it was a bit complicated as the issue wasn't just between me and the other person, but also friends were involved. And it's on me because my reaction was to vent out to them... however now I am regretting this because i see that i am the one alone without friends at all. And sometimes i keep wondering, why is this happening to me? I had issue with a person, why somehow all the mutual friends started drifting away from me. I wwnt to a psychiatric and tried to find new friends and tried to have new hobbies. But this doesn't click. More importantly, this isn't the only thing that is bothering me, I went through three big fights and all of a sudden now i feel like i am the one in the wrong and need to change yet i don't know what i should do... and i blame those past friends for not givjng support or trying to tell me what's wrong with me. Now the only thing i feel is hollowness that I don't know how to avoid. They say you should process those emotions and live by them, one day you will be healed, but i fear i get into the next semester and just lose more people... i also want to go back to those friends, and i tried but i always feel that i am being rejected, in fact i talked with that person that i broke up with and it admitted that most what was done by it was out of disrespect and desire to bother me... I would like to knoq what i should do of course you don't have the full picture and i might be biased and only show myself as a victim... but maybe because i don't know that i was wrong in any thing