im tired that i care too much i feel too much its so heavy that its killing me slowly and im tired of not losing hope every time something happens i lose hope but once this thing give me a flash that its still alive or any sign even i get too excited to get it all back all my hope comes back even stronger that the disappointment feels like a slow death… I have to face the truth that this is me and acting all bitchy as much as i want wont change who i am deeply inside maybe the facade im putting is protecting me but acting all strong and nonchalant that… that was never me but i have to do this to survive in this world and i hate that i have to its only two ways wether it is being myself and get dumped and used because of it or being bitchy and kill who i truly am.

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