alone

I'm feelin lost I can't speak to people I don't know how to speak I'm always alone even whne I'm in home I can't speak to my family I don't have the confidence to speak or do anythink I'm tierd My mind doesn't want to let me live

I just want to talk . I dont have friends or anyone to talk. I have many bad feelings and i dont know how i fix my problems. I dont know how people see me like a bad person or a weak person that can make me alone.

Tbh I still don't understand why I'm feeling this way is it the way I was since I was a kid or suddenly got depressed and now I can't even study as I used to I literally changed I can't even stay 2 hours studying I'm always on my bed and my phone and I feel tired and negative even though I always try to get better with any kind of way I tried praying cleaning my space thinking positivity but I always fail and I always seek attention from others and most of times now I'm alone I have friends but not really my friends everyone is busy with their lives even though we're just 18 I am so tired and my mental health is getting worse and I have I should study or else I will fail like last year

I've lost all motivation, I don't want to do anything anymore, I feel empty and alone. I'm ashamed of myself when I go out; I hide my face and I feel like everyone is staring at me. I'm 22 years old. Every night, I tell myself I'm going to change, but I've never started. I'm too shy; I feel uncomfortable in crowded places and I have very low self-esteem. I smoked cannabis for 5 years, but I haven't smoked for 36 days now because of a bad trip. Even though I'm making some progress, I still feel worthless. I'm 22 years old and my only romantic relationship with girls was in high school when I was 17, or with girls online (long-distance relationships). I'm self-conscious about my weight; I'm very thin and I can no longer approach girls or talk to strangers. I feel lost in a dark hole.