I've lost all motivation, I don't want to do anything anymore, I feel empty and alone. I'm ashamed of myself when I go out; I hide my face and I feel like everyone is staring at me. I'm 22 years old. Every night, I tell myself I'm going to change, but I've never started. I'm too shy; I feel uncomfortable in crowded places and I have very low self-esteem. I smoked cannabis for 5 years, but I haven't smoked for 36 days now because of a bad trip. Even though I'm making some progress, I still feel worthless. I'm 22 years old and my only romantic relationship with girls was in high school when I was 17, or with girls online (long-distance relationships). I'm self-conscious about my weight; I'm very thin and I can no longer approach girls or talk to strangers. I feel lost in a dark hole.
Stop worrying about other people. foucs on yourself and your health that what matters the most practice sport and pray nobody can judge u be your self hang out with friends that appreciate u then every thing wil seem easy believe me
Don't rush to get in relationship, take your time, you're still young and you have your entire life to live. You are doing great ... Not everyone can stop smoke cannabis, but you did it for over a month which is a great thing, my advice is to work on yourself and try to stop slacking and everything will be good for you
it's very hard i know, and it must've been suffocating to go through all this. to be frank i think that the problem here isn't who you are, or your looks, or how 'shy' you are. it's good to acknowledge the negatives, but you're still worth the good things even with the existence of your bad parts. your worth isn't related to your relationships with girls or whatever, if you want things to be different ,then you should start by acknowledging the root of the problem (it seems to me that it's your decision to make your self esteem dependant on stuff like weight or how social you are, which is wrong). then try to focus more on living and taking actions instead of thinking. don't live inside your head or else you'd waste your life and potential just for the sake of staying in this comfortable but toxic cycle. start by small steps like religious stuff or a healthy meal, or anything you'd like to do, slowly, you'll be better. also congrats on your streak without smoking, and your progress.
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