I've lost all motivation, I don't want to do anything anymore, I feel empty and alone. I'm ashamed of myself when I go out; I hide my face and I feel like everyone is staring at me. I'm 22 years old. Every night, I tell myself I'm going to change, but I've never started. I'm too shy; I feel uncomfortable in crowded places and I have very low self-esteem. I smoked cannabis for 5 years, but I haven't smoked for 36 days now because of a bad trip. Even though I'm making some progress, I still feel worthless. I'm 22 years old and my only romantic relationship with girls was in high school when I was 17, or with girls online (long-distance relationships). I'm self-conscious about my weight; I'm very thin and I can no longer approach girls or talk to strangers. I feel lost in a dark hole.