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How can a man get some peace of mind without feeling that I'm behind or that I'm wasting my time? Every single time i just try to unplug my mind and just chill for a bit, even slowing down for a while i always end up feeling bad, worse than ever, feeling like i should be doing more and more, i should be working now, i should be making more money, etc like I don't deserve to take a break Even tho i have so freaking much going on with my life lately, and while being a one man army for years, i really need to find some peace

Update i tried again to get her too look at his green flags she told me she will press charges on him if she sees us talking in any way, she screamed in my face and told me i have no common sense and that i apparently find joy in hurting people told me theres no way out that im going to counseling is trusting people shes never met over me make me bawl and now wants to act like were friends im so done i cant even. 16 years of being the “responsible” “perfect” child and its all nothing when push comes to shove.. im so tired of all of this. I hate her and myself. I had to cut him out of my life completely to keep him out of trouble. I hate myself for hurting him when hes already going through so much. If i knew this would happen i would have never gotten with him in the first place. I dont know anymore i just hurt.

Hey ,so my family is forcing me to get married, they are so religious and i cannot seem to find a solution to finding a way out of this, im planning a divorce after i get married but im concern that they will interfere, this marriage is eating me out alive ,cannot eat cannot sleep, and if I SAY NO THEY WILL MAKE MY LIFE A LIVING HELL , I WAS THINKING OF SENDING SOMEONE TO TALK WRONGLY ABOUT ME SO THE GUY LEAVERS FOR GOD BIT THEY WILL KNOW IT'S ME AND MAKE MY LIFE A LIVING HELL , I THOUGHT OF RUNNING AWAY BUT THEY WILL HURT MY COUSINS WITH MORE TRUMAS , AND THE PROBLEM IS THAT THE GUY AND HIS FAMILY ARE SO NICE AND SWEET AND I FEEL GUILTY THINKING ABOUT RUNNING THIER SON'S LIFE, TELL ME WHAT TO DOOOO 🫠🫠🫠🫠