I was pregnant after being raped by a horrible man This was over a year ago At first I was terrified but I accepted the situation and was even prepared to marry my rapist to protect the child from society I forced myself to deal with him for the child's sake But after four months I lost the baby because my pregnancy was high-risk and I wasn't careful enough then cut off contact with that man But since that day I feel extremely guilty and bad as if I've lost the most important thing in my life The child was the result of rape I was not happy about it and I never wanted to have children in the first place What happened was for the best the situation should reassure me But I feel extremely guilty and bad And I haven't even gotten over it after almost two years