trauma

Idk what to do today is the worst day of my life, and i hate that i know that well . I also hate that I'm still getting affected by this. I thought i rly won't care anymore. But unfortunately, i care . I thought i moved on and buried it forever. Idk to say details, but it's like meeting a truama again feels like I'm at the exact same moment. And I'm acting exactly like a child. i can't stop crying. i hate that do much . I didn't change anything like i promised myself I'm still that weak child i hate my life . I wish i was never born, as he told me . He was right .

I used to be one of the top students in my class, especially in the mathematics track, but suddenly my academic performance dropped. What’s frustrating is that every time I face an exam paper, I often feel like I actually know how to answer, yet something happens and I can’t respond properly. There was even a test that was very easy—one I had solved before—yet during the exam, I couldn’t answer it at all. I don’t fully understand what is happening to me, and that’s what makes it more difficult. I’m currently seeing a psychologist, and I’ve discovered that I may be dealing with multiple past traumas, which might be affecting my performance. I’m looking for honest advice. Has anyone gone through a similar phase—where they suddenly dropped after being a high achiever—and then managed to return to their previous level? If so, I would really like to know what helped you overcome it.