I feel horrible I have bad energy makes me wanna die im doing bad thinks wrong thinks but I really suffer I wanna be a good man . I just wanna live in peace . my biggest problem is addiction it make me feel weak sick addition and my history make me think in bad way all the time for 4 months I've never arrived this point . I know im wrong in many thinks but I swear I never wanted to do bad thinks I just enter in another dimension when I decide to stop it and do bad thinks make me feel regret and this is killing me now i dont feel im understanding myself im about to do something bad to myself please help 🙏