You’re not dealing with a food or discipline problem, but with emotional exhaustion and constant anger. This may be linked to things like burnout or anhedonia, where you stop enjoying things you used to like. Your “self-sabotage” isn’t random — it can come from hidden anger, loss of motivation, or even a subconscious resistance to change. Work is the only thing you enjoy because it gives structure, control, and distracts you from your emotions. The feeling of “punishing yourself” may come from pressure, self-criticism, or feeling like you don’t deserve to feel good yet. The real issue is the anger, not the food. Instead of focusing on strict dieting, it’s better to notice your emotions before acting, release anger in healthy ways, stop the “all or nothing” mindset, and slowly bring back small sources of enjoyment. You’re not weak you’re just overwhelmed, and your behavior is a way of coping

Simply you have to put some rules to improve your eating habites and don't put many rules at the same time no Like " this week I won't eat sugar or sweets" And next week add another rule. -To eat less food not mean to lose weight You don't have to feel hunger all the time, no Eat food in portions that satisfy you and in the same time doesn't have many calories and with time your portions automatically will be smaller than your beginning