emotional pain

Who is Why this Love that Not thiaS Talk about what,me? Not exactly i think talk about my failure my ambitious my downgrades like everyday Soul not grave or maybe graves nobody knows Actually i know

I think the hardest thing I've learned is that being surrounded by people and feeling understood are two completely different things You can sit in a room full of family, friends, people who have known you for years, and still feel completely alone Not because nobody is there But because nobody sees the weight you're carrying Everyone sees your decisions Everyone sees your reactions Everyone sees the moments where you're upset, angry, emotional, distant, stubborn, or quiet Very few people stop long enough to ask what happened before that Very few people care about the thousands of thoughts that led to the moment they're judging Lately I feel like I've been carrying pieces of myself around that nobody notices Old disappointments I never really got over Words people said that they probably forgot five minutes later but somehow stayed with me for years Dreams I had to put aside Plans that never happened People I trusted Versions of myself I miss And sometimes I wonder if anyone realizes how exhausting it is to constantly keep moving while carrying all of that I think people assume strength looks like never breaking But honestly, I think real strength is breaking and continuing anyway It's crying and still showing up the next morning It's feeling disappointed and still finding a reason to hope It's being hurt and still choosing kindness It's feeling alone and still getting out of bed There are days when I feel like I'm fighting battles nobody else can see Not dramatic battles Not movie-worthy tragedies Just quiet battles The kind that happen entirely inside your head The battle between what you want and what everyone expects from you The battle between your heart and your mind The battle between forgiving people and remembering what they did The battle between hope and disappointment The battle between who you are and who everyone thinks you should be And the worst part is that those battles don't leave bruises Nobody sees them Nobody notices how tired you are from carrying them Sometimes I wish I could explain what goes on in my head without sounding dramatic I wish I could explain that being hurt isn't always about one big event Sometimes it's years of little things Years of feeling misunderstood Years of trying to be the bigger person Years of swallowing your feelings because speaking up creates more problems than staying quiet Years of trying to make everyone comfortable while slowly forgetting what comfort feels like yourself And eventually something changes You stop expecting people to understand You stop expecting explanations You stop expecting apologies Not because you're healed But because you're tired And there's a specific kind of sadness that comes with that The sadness of realizing that some people will never see your side of the story No matter how carefully you explain it No matter how much you sacrifice No matter how much you try Sometimes they'll only ever see the version of you that exists in their mind And maybe that's what hurts the most Not being hated Not being rejected Being misunderstood Because when someone misunderstands you, they aren't responding to who you actually are They're responding to a version of you that doesn't exist I don't think I'm angry anymore I think I'm just grieving a lot of things The people I thought would understand me The situations I thought would end differently The plans I thought would work out The peace I thought I would have by now Maybe that's why I've been so tired lately Because grief isn't always about losing people Sometimes it's about losing expectations Losing certainty Losing the future you imagined And having to build a new one from the pieces I don't know Maybe I'll figure it out eventually Maybe all of this will make sense one day But right now, if I'm being honest, I'm just trying to get through one day at a time Trying to carry what I can Trying to let go of what I can't Trying to believe that all of this heaviness won't last forever And hoping that one day I won't feel like I have to explain my existence just to be understood In the end, after all of this, there's only one constant thought which is: بيكسروا حاجات تعبت في اني ابنيها لوحدي..

So, I'm bad in expressing my feelings, I don't know what's happening to me, I'm tired of this life, I'm tired of love, he was the best person and I loved him so much, I thought he's the only one who understands me but, he's changing, he doesn't care about me. I need someone to care about me, I told him about my illness but he uses it as a, something funny. I'm not okay, at all, I need help, but I can't ask for it, because nobody cares about me! They just see me as a funny girl, but, no one's trying to understand me Even when I talk about how do I feel, I just see people changing, hating me If someone has some advice or just, sweet things to tell me, I really need it

As a 30yo female i feel like time is running out, and im still not over this feeling of hatred towards myself, it all started when my younger sister was born, i was 7 i was a tomboy i loved playing with boys more, everyone used to make hateful comments but i didn't care, until i turned 7, started getting jealous, started eating more, and gained weight, the comments became more harsh, comparing me to my older & younger sister, anyway started not looking at my reflection at all, i wouldent care about how i looked, continued gaining weight, and blamed it on my weight( it= self hatred) anyway by 2019 i was 23 i lost all the weight, but my confidence never came back & tge hatred never got away, so by the time covid hit, i gained back that weight, and now 6 yrs later i lost it again but still feel shitty about my appearance, so.. sorry to say it but the more u let it grow with u the harder it gets to get rid off. Talk to someone before its too late

I just want to talk . I dont have friends or anyone to talk. I have many bad feelings and i dont know how i fix my problems. I dont know how people see me like a bad person or a weak person that can make me alone.

I don't feel I'm a part of this society anymore, it's been 6 years and i never made a friend on it , I started working at young age where it's kinda hard for me to meet pp my age, I can't remember the good times I had with my self and I can't even tell if the things that happened to me are real or I'm just imagine things ,I should accept god plans and that's what I'm trying to do , it's just sometimes I wished pp cared like I did for them !

I'm feeling exhausted, I feel like it's useless, whatever I do never takes me to the wanted result, doka 3lbali one must be patient and believe in god and some things are not meant to be , but honestly when is it going to be my turn to be happy...I'm tired

Here they are again, Holidays reveal ur loneliness, no life without exams studying,no one to turn to, no one to choose u, no one cares about u. Ur just thinking of who of them to talk to but u just feel u have no place or right to talk to somebody. Know that I'm not thier favorite but wish to, did everything to reach that place, but at the end no one to turn to, no one to escape to, no one to reveal ur real one to.

Idk what to do today is the worst day of my life, and i hate that i know that well . I also hate that I'm still getting affected by this. I thought i rly won't care anymore. But unfortunately, i care . I thought i moved on and buried it forever. Idk to say details, but it's like meeting a truama again feels like I'm at the exact same moment. And I'm acting exactly like a child. i can't stop crying. i hate that do much . I didn't change anything like i promised myself I'm still that weak child i hate my life . I wish i was never born, as he told me . He was right .

Negativity is sucking the life out of me right now, Nothing is going how I want it to be, and nothing is actually going right, even the confession I’ve been waiting on for so long, everything just got worst after it, and out of everyone I went and fell in love with someone who suffers from BPD, and guess what? I’m suffering from the same damn thing, and we are just here ruining eachother lifes, atp I think love is never meant for me tbh.

I hate myself. My father is yelling at me. He's saying that I didn't do anything, that i can only lie here like piece of garbage and do nothing. He's saying that he didn't deserve such an insult from me. He's absolutely right. He repeats my own thoughts. I don't want to see what's next anymore. I want to give up. I refuse to continue this. I don't want to achieve anything anymore, I just want to live one day without wanting to kill myself. I'm so sorry for people reading this. Im wasting your time. You don't have to answer me. You should probably ignore this. I just have nowhere else to go. Sorry.

I broke up with my boyfriend on the 18th of March and he moved on the next day,I've been talking to him,even yesterday we talked,the thing is I'm unable to move on from him the same way he did On Sunday we flirted and later that day i told him that I'm keeping my distance because he's in a relationship,honestly it's hard to forget about him

Update i tried again to get her too look at his green flags she told me she will press charges on him if she sees us talking in any way, she screamed in my face and told me i have no common sense and that i apparently find joy in hurting people told me theres no way out that im going to counseling is trusting people shes never met over me make me bawl and now wants to act like were friends im so done i cant even. 16 years of being the “responsible” “perfect” child and its all nothing when push comes to shove.. im so tired of all of this. I hate her and myself. I had to cut him out of my life completely to keep him out of trouble. I hate myself for hurting him when hes already going through so much. If i knew this would happen i would have never gotten with him in the first place. I dont know anymore i just hurt.

Is it normal that when i return home after a really normal day after i had fun with my friends and nothing bad happened, i have severe anxiety attacks and feel like i'm gonna die and my heart's racing so hard and i can't breathe, i feel like i wanna cry and my body refuses to let the tears down And i physically and mentally can't take it anymore because that feeling of fear of dying is real and it hurts so bad, and i feel like wanna die and end it already (I'm not thinking about suicide) but it's like i want this thing to stop and idk what to do about it

Hi, this is my first time using this app, and I'm hoping for some advices or literally anything. I'm a high performance athlete and i feel like my parents and coach want too much from me and I can't give the desired results. I always try my best. It doesn't matter how much i train I get worse, but they want more and more. They only want the medals and just ignore the fact that I feel exhausted emotionally and physically. I know sports are a big roller-coaster but it's just hard. I been doing it for many years but this is different, i have really bad thoughts and i realized i torture myself. I always think that i can't do it. When i talk about this to my parents they just joke about it, f**ing laugh at me...like some little kids. They say i just want attention. I feel lost, like a fool...

Hey , so I'm new here i kind of need some new friends coz I'm dealing with depression and just got hurt by my best friend because of her bf and it was my biggest heartbreak ngl Idi what im saying this i feel like I'm seeking attention while I'm not anyway if you ever need a new friend , thanks

Ive not had my mother for 9 years now but ive always loved her and for some reason always belifed anything she says is the truth even though it never is.. i usued to wait at the door when she said she was coming to get me and refuse to move an inch with my bag packed beside me till i fell asleep, and she would always leave us no matter what she promised when we woke up she would be gone and i thought it would change because its my monma afterall until one day she decided to leave for good not that i knew that at the time but i fought kicked and screamed for her to stay all i wanted was for her to be with me i didnt care she was an adict i didnt mind that she wasnt with my dad i didnt care if she cooked bad or that she always lied or that she had no teeth i just wanted her to stay.. i never shook that feeling and i don’t understand what this feeling is because i know she did so much to hurt me and my siblings and my dad but i cant help but sit and cry because i miss her and i dont know why i miss someone who never chooses me someone who has hurt me more than everyone else… i dont know what this weight on my chest is but it makes it so hard to breath and i dont know how to fix it..

Hy everyone wish thst ur all okay I just have a problem that my parents prefer their families which means parents and sblings more than me and I didn't feel okay I fell sad 😢 any help I'll be so grateful if u help me and give me advices