Hi to whoever is listening to this voice message. I hope you're doing good, especially your health. Anyway, we're gonna go straight to whatever I want to say. So the thing is, I notice a lot of times, like, people be telling me that I act like a victim. like every time i try to express my feeling or something i'll be acting like a victim especially with my friendships relationships and stuff and whatever i'm gonna come back to the stress and fear of failure i guess um so actually i don't know you know my baccalaureate exam i literally really failed and again now i'm doing it again and okay i think i had a back trauma by the way this is funny like every time i try to talk about something but comes in the way and i wanted to talk about also people how do you fight the thoughts of um i mean i don't want to say this but the thoughts of suicide and but I know everyone's gonna say like yeah I cannot do that I don't think I will do that or I tried to do that but I didn't because I was scared I don't know but I think um it's just the faster solution to whatever is going on but trust me I'm such a positive person and I love life and I know life has a lot of things but I just find that thought of ending your life is very comforting I mean comforting comforting all right cool funny but um I really really hate the fact that I was um such a different person and I was able to do a lot of things and now um I'm literally I can't even believe that I could do anything in my life um the biggest and even though I want to believe something else um there's a lot of things that are convincing me that I'm actually the opposite yeah like you failed and you're gonna fail again because you have just one month left and you don't know if you're gonna do it or not if you're gonna to make it or not, so I don't know, I have a lot of things that I want to say, and I think this is so complicated and a lot on the plate, but yeah, whatever you want to tell me, tell me.