Okay, I'll start... I never loved, and even if I did, I'd move on. I could forget by doing other things... But this time it became difficult for me to forget that person's image... I thought it would last three months and then disappear... now it's worse... I tried forgetting him and doing other things... I'm afraid I won't be able to forget him... I feel stupid for loving him...I don't know if he knows... but my actions betray me every time I see him... I want to lose him... I don't want to love him. There are so many logical reasons why we can't be together... I thought this would make me happy and make it easier to forget him... but it seems to be the worst thing... I see him in my dreams everywhere... like a madwoman... But I decided to overcome these feelings, stop looking at him, and withdraw. I know it hurts, and it still hurts so much that I cry nonstop... not out of love for him, but out of despair with myself.
What was different about him that you're unable to get passed him
Loving Kindness or Love is Great. You can do everything, from your side, stimulated by love. It is not the problem to look at, listen to about, think about, and write about the ones you love, as long as those do not cause any troubles to others. But to get something back from the other side is in the zone you can't control. Things like you want a hug for your stay beside the one you love and you want the good night talk as you support him are just your personal desires of want under your greediness. You can't kill the desires. But just getting from the one who is willing to give to you is harmlessly fulfilled.
U just stucks in memories
Since it's your first time to fall in love, you know what they say.. Maybe first love doesn't be the last but it's still special and so hard to forget giving the emotions, the pulse and chimstery change in our bodies
You probably have strong emotions, you hate so much and you love so much
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